This Life

So recently I was in my bathroom getting ready for the day. I felt strange for a split second. I know that sounds silly. For me though, there are certain things that set instant worry through my veins. I think it's due to having a dad that died of brain cancer and a mom who had a breast cancer scare. Small things hit you quick... is that a lump? Why do I have a headache? They aren't just simple things any more. As I paused in that moment I clearly heard the Lord say, "Why are you so worried about this life? ..... It's not yours." There was an instant wave of emotion. Emotion I can't describe... peace, clarity, comfort... all rolled in to one. It's not mine. This life is not my own. The phrase, "living on borrowed time" had new meaning. The scripture, from Corinthians "You are not your own" made more sense. I hear this phrase frequently but it was like the eyes of my heart were opened. I began to think about things differently. I began to think about the longings of our hearts toward things. Myself included. I desire a Godly man in my life that I can come along side. I desire to work in unity with someone to build the Kingdom. But in asking to do that, in praying for a husband, in a man or woman's plea for a child, in a desperate cry for healing of a loved one; ultimately we are asking to borrow a life. Another life, that is also not our own. So now there's the realization that my life is not my own coupled with the realization that our prayers are asking to borrow another life on this earth. It made a lot more sense to me also to then think about why God doesn't always LEND when we ask to BORROW. I don't know that we all realize what we are truly asking.... in short, we are asking to borrow His children. We are, at times, begging, for Him to send us something we want in our heart. But it's like asking your best friend to borrow their baby, asking your boss to borrow their new Mercedes. Those are poor earthly examples, but I'm not sure how else to convey my thoughts. (Maybe I'm too mind blown! LOL) For now I am thankful. Thankful I have the life I have. Thankful that one day my borrowed life will join with another. What are you thankful for? How many borrowed lives have been lent to you in this season? Enjoy them until you have to give them back!!